Ups and Downs of our Adoption

Sorry haven't been on here very much. I have been traveling with work and just frankly didn't have much to say. Well nothing I care to put in writing.

Seems like this process is one step forward and three steps back. We received our birth certificate and court decree we were so excited, only to find a mistake that has to be corrected. So we are waiting yet again for our court decree. No telling how long that will take to get that one piece of paper.
Oh the waiting for paper so exhausting.

But one step closer is better then nothing I tell myself.
I was looking through photos of KK and Lawson when they were little. It reminded me that we will never know Micki's story. When he asks did I walk early or what was my first word we won't be able to tell him. My heart breaks for the things we missed. Not that we missed them really but that we won't be able to tell him that his son or daughter looks just like him, acts like him or anything at that infant/toddler stage.
I just don't want to miss anything else. I want him home so we can get to know him and start making our memories as a family. Everyday that goes by is one we can't get back with him. Every skinned knee nightmare, giggle he has now is one we aren't a part of. One we can't kiss, comfort and enjoy with him.

I often said this is like a pregnancy but now it's turned into our child our son is half way around the world waiting just like we are for us to come to him. No amount of red tape or delays can be explained away to a seven year old. He knows he has a family and wonders when will they come for me. I can't image his thoughts. Mine are hard enough to bare and I understand the process. Well sort of understand. I don't understand all the delays and waiting. Child in need of family, Child adopted, parents come get child, case closed in my mind. But the waiting is something I am not accepting very well now.